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No Psych teacher from high school just emailed me his phone number so we can get coffee and catch up sometime.

The high school me that had such a big crush on him is freaking out.

My secrets are safer here...

Usually, I'd use Tumblr to blog thoughts, but that has been compromised by ex boyfriends and nosey bitches. Since the only person that checks this doesn't even do it often...AND he's one of the few people I'd trust with my life.

I've decided to redirect my life in the relationship wise and just person wise. HOWEVER, as far as changing my personality, I'm not going to do too much to that. I need to find someone that's going to want me for me. Warts and All so to speak. I'm ready to start dating again, I believe. Not necessarily a relationship, but I wouldn't mind the fun, beginnings. The dates, flirting, constant talking, learning. That's always so exciting. AND if nothing comes of it, no hard feelings! I get a friend out of it.

The guy I assumed would be the easiest to going back to being friends with however, has been such a tool. Honestly, I am so disappointed in him.  I guess that's what I get for having such high expectations of him, just as he had of me. But really...am I that difficult to even want to stay FRIENDS with? Shit dude. I don't even really miss him, I don't think. I feel it's just the physical closeness between two people. I miss holding hands, kissing, sex. I just need   want to just be close to someone. BUT I'm picky about that too..so that's a bit of an issue. I want to feel wanted, and give want back. Even if it's just for a small, false amount of time...which is why this usually works best with a close friend. BUT he's being a tool.

Meh. I just want a boy to tell me I'm pretty when we cuddle. It sounds so shallow..BUT it's merely a want. Not a need. I'm stronger than that and I don't, nor will I ever, need a man to feel validated. A lot of that has to do with this girl Alice Stokes Paul I researched. She's SUCH a badass..She fought all through the end of the 2oth century for Women's Rights. A HUGE civil rights activist for Gender Equality. She makes me want to create a cause to fight for. I'm a huge supporter of Invisible Children and Human Trafficking, I think I want to start my own organization for either one of these places. OR finding things that can send clean water to third world countries. I just want to DO something important with my life. Acting isn't as important as making a difference. However, as an actor I'll be able to use my voice, income and connections to help it. I just want to leave this world different than it was when I got here. I want my children to be proud of me and the legacy I left behind.


Anyways, I think that's all for now. I've got some homework to get to.

sometimesIthinkImbetteroffhadIstayedinlovewithhewhowontbenamed.

Garrett this is for you, you poop face.

I'm just kidding. You're not a poop face.

Let me tell you about life since you want to creep me instead of just ask.

Well- Adam and I are gonna try the friend thing. I know you're probably shaking your head right now and saying NO, but it's worth a shot I suppose.

I'm learning how to relax when it comes to my boyfriend.'

I auditioned for this music show called The Voice. I didn't make it, but it's okay! I'm just glad that I did it :)

I've fallen in love with a new boy band. I didn't want to. It just sort of happened.

They're British. So..yay boy bands! hahah They're One Direction.

I'm getting to meet Demi Lovato (AGAIN!) tomorrow because my mom is quality and won tickets for a secret show!!

And well that's basically it for now!

You need to visit me soon because I need physical Garrett in my life. That would be super.

Okay thanks. :)

Love you derp.

WOW NEW BLOG POST AH!!

HAI GUYS HAI!!!

So it's been FFFOOORREEEVVVEERR since I've written anything here haha.

I doubt anyone even still reads this haha.

I'm feelin' nostalgic tonight.
Also kinda freaking out about moving for college.

SO I'm not even sure what to write about.

Time is speeding by so fast.
Things have changed.

For better? or for worse?

No clue.

But I guess we'll find out soon enough.

Cover of The Girl by City&Colour

So..I did a cover of this song :D

It's really quite a shame...

this whole us being friends thing never worked out. I still think you're super. And seeing as we've both moved on...hmm oh well...to each his own. I wish you the best.

Guys, guys, guys!!!

I'm happy. Genuinely happy.

I swore I learned from the last one so I'm being extra careful to not make the same mistake. And it's working :) granted the situations are different....but it's working all the same. It frightens a bit. Especially if people try and give shit for this. That'll just piss me off because it's not fair.
"Every sinner has a future and every saint has a past"

My past doesn't define me. It's shaped me. I'm smarter now.

So I'm continuing with my not waiting and being happy.

Update complete :)