Thursday January 21, 2010.....No day but today

This Blog takes place between the hours of 4:54 p.m and hmmm 5:30 p.m. Beep-Boop-Beep-Boop.

The truck is FINALLY packed ohmygoodness it took FOORREEVVEERRR!!! FOR...EV.....ER!!! (sorry sandlot moment) If you don't know the movie the sandlot then you better get hip fast!! haha

Anyways We just have to pack up the car then we're off. We're headed North to Indy then South to Springfield, Missouri. Yes I think its "The Simpsons" Springfield, however I'm not sure. We plan to drive probably 9-12 hours before we stop though so we'll see how far we get.

I'm not in TOO big of a rush to get to California simply due to the mudslides and torrential rain. That's not really the sight I'd like to see to be honest haha.

I do have my phone on me so feel free to text or call, because well I love to talk and I really have nothing else to do. UNLESS it's my Harry Potter time, then please wait a few hours. I'd gladly appreciate it. XD

I saw the back of the truck today and it scared me. We packed our whole life into a 16 ft truck. It's a little ridiculous. I said goodbye to my Aunt, Uncle and cousins today. That was difficult. They mean the world to me and I won't get to see them grow up.

I also said goodbye to my Dad and Kendra (aka evil stepmom haha) That was really really hard. It's my dad. How am I supposed to say goodbye (for now) to him?!?!? He's my rock and now he'll be miles and miles away. I'll see him soon though. He's the best daddy ever. That's right. I say daddy. Hush you mouth.

Anywho I guess I'll go now. Write more from the road. Adios los amigos.

"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."

Does it work?

There's never a right time to say goodbye....

I head out tomorrow. There's a truck outside of my house, full of my life. My friends and family stopped by today. I didn't cry until it was time to say goodbye to my grandparents. Their love and support are what keep me strong. My grandparents have tremendous strength I only wish to have. This won't be the easiest thing. I REALLY hate sacrifices. BUT I will rise above it all.

More tomorrow. I'm too emotionally drained. A boy made me smile today, then he made me overanalyze what he said. That was my attempt at lightening the mood. HA!

Well Live.Love.Laugh.Dream.DO.

Follow your heart, has it ever led you down a wrong path before?

Ames

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Rant and rave all you want. No one will hear you.

You think you're pretty cool that you've captured my heart huh? I'm surprised you've let it go on this long. You fade in and out way to much for me to believe a single word you say. Seriously.....I wish I had the courage to just tell you to go away. Maybe a shooting star to wish it to. I'm just a silly girl. You're using me as a reality placeholder. When things go wrong in freezing cold, what not land. I'm the one you fall back on. Why? because you know Ill be here. I'm not strong enough to walk away. Do I even want to?

Thats the problem I DONT WANT TO!!! You make me laugh. You make me happy. You make me smile. You make me so many things, but you also make me frown. You make me sad. You make me confused. You told me you care about me. I believe you....sometimes. I just think all the time how impossible it is that you could STILL care about me. Or start caring. We're miles apart. None of these things however will ever reach you. I can't open myself up to you like that. I already sound pathetic and weak. I don't you to make fun of me because I believed a lie either.

This will make sense someday. I just wish I knew what I was doing. Is there any hope? or is Impossible the word we're romancing? My guess is the second.

Wow I need to stop over analyzing. I need to stop thinking. I need to stop a lot of things. I'd be better then huh?

Who knows maybe it'll all be worth it. I don't know the future. I just hate not knowing SOMETHING.

blah. okay this is a disgusting blog. I already hate it. Excuse me my dears It's really irrelevant. I just needed to get that off my chest. Thanks for listening.

"Listen to your heart. It never steers you wrong"

No clever title

It's a snow day today!!! Not that I have a legit reason to be excited. I'm not even in school, BUT I am excited that it snowed. I won't get much of it. Although I didn't have anyone to play in it with :( .....It just keeps comin down though so MAYBE i'll get to play in it tomorrow!!

There might even be enough to go snowboarding in! You need like what 4-6 inches? I'm pretty sure we'll get that. Anyway enough about snow. I'm boring myself.

I've accomplished NOTHING today. My mom's sick :( hope she feels better. Maybe I'll pack later tonight. I don't sleep much anymore so....Mainly just write in my journal or read. I could post a journal entry BUT I'm never sure who's going to read this. Don't want to embarrass myself anymore then I already have.

I'm listening to a mix C.D my friend Drew Keegan made it. It's pretty epic not gonna lie. Maybe I'll post the track list sometime and you guys can go find all the songs. :)

Right now The Funeral by Band of Houses is on.

hhah funeral....my dad once told me he wanted to be buried in a shirt that says "I put the FUN in funeral"

Sad thing is he wasn't kidding. That would fit him perfectly too.

Today is turning out to be a good one. I've got a smile on my face. YOU should too.

Stay positive.

Quote of the day: "If you TRULY begin to love yourself take care of yourself,protect yourself and things will change Rapidly" - Rev. Run.

Live.Love.Laugh.Dream.DO

it's 1:16 A.M...Do YOU know where your friend is?

So right.....it's late and I SHOULD be packing. However I'm not. Clearly I'm writing this blog. I've just racked up too much stuff over the years. Now the news reports a blizzard is headed our way. Will I ever get out of here? Yes...but it'll take me a little longer. My friends are probably cheering. No worries guys part of me is too. I just don't how much longer I'm gonna hold up. How many times must I say "Hello" before I'm actually gone. It's not fair to you guys either.

Bhah. I can't believe I'm saying this but I miss school. I miss having homework. My teachers and my weird arm wave thing with Allison. (I hope she's creeping this haha I love you!!) Happy birthday by the way!!!!

Anyway I just want to move on. I'm stagnant right now. So much baggage to pack, yet so much more I want to just leave here. I really just want my clothes, music, pillow and my Cutout of Edward. I'll be set. Maybe A few friends and I'll be good to go. I have found some hilarious memories though!! Notes from ex boyfriends. A pro and con list trying to see if i should like this one boy or not. Needless to say the cons won...but I liked him and EVENTUALLY dated him anyway haha. My heart never learned, but hey I loved the kid.

Enough about that. I'm not sure what else to say....so I guess I'll go pack. Stay tuned for more.

Live.Love.Dream.Do.